SUPER-EXTRA

I think about you all the time. So much time has passed but I’ll never forget you. I think about some of the decisions I made and realize I’ll have to live with them the rest of my life. I hope you can forgive me.  I’ve grown so much since the time you came into and out of my life.  I still haven’t figured it all out. It took 4 years, but I finally let go of the little teddy-bear that reminded me of you. I hoped it would help me move on, but nothing has changed. I’ll never get over you.  You are never far from my mind. I see other men with their children and I wonder how we would’ve turned out had I not been so afraid.  I wish I could take it all back. I wish I fought for you more. I wish I could let go but some decisions are paid for through painful regrets.

Although it’s not a crime, I plead guilty
I know what I’ve done and pray my child forgives me
Society prevented my eyes from seeing clearly
I’m just a kid, way too young to raise a family.
What becomes of a boy who becomes a man
only to realize he never gave his unborn child the same chance?
PAIN you can’t believe
And no matter how hard I try
There is no peace.